If you were to walk onto an empty bus, which seat would you choose, and why?
Being the introverted person I am, I tend to find myself sitting in the back of the bus. I love having my own space, away from people, away from literally anything.
I like to sit far away from the bus driver as well. Don’t get me wrong, most bus drivers are cool, it’s just.. I like to stay away from people.
It can be stressful having to deal with lots of people all the time, and on a bus, where there's most likely going to be lots of people, it’s an ideal spot for an introvert to get to, assuming there are not so many people.
I don’t mean it’s an ideal idea for introverts to hang around lots of people, because they don’t always like that. I mean, if they go to the back of the bus, and there's an open seat then they’re free to sit without being bothered.
Of course, they could still be but- continue, please.
I’ve had many unpleasant experiences on buses.
Back in around 5th grade, I was very uneducated about literally anything LGBTQ. I had no idea what it was, no idea what any of the terms were, and heck, I didn’t even know what “gay” meant.
There was this kid, who was either in 8th grade, or high school, who was always bothering people on the bus. Specifically 5th graders.
One day, this kid happened to be sitting relatively close to me. I was minding my own business, drifting off in my own mystical 5th-grade mind, when this kid decided to ask me:
“Are you gay?”
I just sat there looking at this kid, completely and utterly confused. Wondering, ”What does that mean?”
So here I am, woken from my thoughts, looking like a complete idiot while this kid just scared me.
Had I known what that had meant at the time, I wouldn’t’ve hesitated to out myself. I’m so very thankful I didn’t know much at the time. But hey, I guess it wouldn’t’ve mattered because I ended up outing myself anyway. Oops.
I don’t remember anything happening after that one incident, but I’m happy it stayed that way. Looking back at it now, I am very thankful it turned out that way. If I did end up outing myself, I could only imagine how much more terrible middle school could have been.
I mean, ha, that kid was stupid. He was trying to get a reaction. But that was 5th grade, I’m in 10th now, it was a minor incident, and I shouldn’t waste any time on something that has already happened.
Say I was asked the same question today, I wouldn’t hesitate to answer. I used to be insecure about my sexuality. But now? I could care less if you knew! I’m happy with myself.
That kid was looking for a reaction, and my socially awkward self did not give him what he wanted. Yay me! It’s been in the back of my mind a lot recently, so I’m happy I got the opportunity to write about it.
So yes, if you happen to see me on a bus, if I’m feeling nice, I’ll let you sit in the seat across from me. I may even share some of my bai lemonade.
Not like I control the bus anyway..
..or so you think.
~lord gaEy elephant